P4P clients (not all, but many) sometimes have negative feelings about our participation. Remorse over how much money we spend on P4P that could be used for other things. (At times, it gets particularly out of control for some clients, including me when I first started.) Guilt over infidelity, or just guilt about P4P in general resulting from our socialization that impressed in our psyches at an early age that this is “wrong.” Fear of discovery. Perhaps occasionally even a bit of self-loathing mixed in with remorse, resulting from the inability to stop something that they think is bad for them. (Some clients really would like to stop but find it very difficult to do so.) And probably a few others here and there.
There’s nothing very surprising in that list, is there? There are negative aspects of P4P; we recognize and deal with them; we continue anyway, because the positive aspectss (or compulsion) are stronger.
Lately I’ve been wondering about another negative emotion that some clients may experience from P4P.
